I try to lead a life of balance, but the last couple weeks have been anything but. I worked about 70 hours last week and through the holiday weekend the week before. So I’m pretty tired. We had a big deadline today that we’ve sorta met, but there’s still work to be done. I miss my babies especially since all I’ve seen of Caleb is for ½ hour in the morning and Alice only when I peek in her room at night. And of course I miss Michelle a lot but we do stay up a little later to talk (ironically it’s usually about work). Yesterday was a little better but not much. I HATE the fact that you’re not a “team player” if you’d rather see your family than stay late, but I do know there’s times when things need to get done.
I’ve learned a little about priorities and motivations. For this type of environment I think I’m pretty abnormal, as I am not really motivated by power, fear or money, or at least I try not to be. People think I’m lying when I say I really don’t care about having more money or power, especially if that means I would have to stay later all the time. I’d rather just be with the fam.
Hopefully this will end soon and we can get back to normal, and this better not become a pattern or things will need to change.